There are times like this morning when I wish I could go back to how I used to be: caring about the needs of others, but thinking they're grown up and if they want to change it's thier responsibility to do it; I'll give them the advice/scriptures I know but my heart was not involved.

Instead I seem to be stuck in a world of hurt: caring about people (past & present) who most of the time don't seem to give a flip about me (don't write, email, call or visit), but ready & willing to help the moment they need it without expecting anything in return AND even knowing the next day they'll go back to their normal/busy lives and forget about me.  Thank God for the Deb T's and Jen's of this world who seem to understand what friendship is all about.

No, I'm not a martyr and I don't think I'm all that, but I think this "Christianity with a heart" sucks sometimes and I don't know if I like it yet.

Let's see what Pastor talks about today...